Hi I’m Pauline; a part time student who after six years had finally reached the last year of my degree. I have enjoyed every minute of my time here, firstly I have had time to myself away from family, bills and housework learning how to be creative, professional and confident which often gets lost once you become a mother, wife, old etc. CCAD has had a very positive inspiring influence of my life and my outlook, in fact I have found I have a particular skill with embroidery. I did do needlework when I was at school, which shows how old I am as its now called Textiles and DT, but I had never copied a drawing using a needle and thread until I started this degree course. Over the past six years that I have been here my embroidery skills, ideas and designs have really developed yet even now I can’t believe I am in my final year specialising in embroidery.
My embroidery is no longer a copy of my drawing, (although I do think I will return to this) it is now more expressive, capturing a mood, or in this case encapsulating my concept which is based on Innocence, passion and restraint. My concept is very personal and inspired by my sister who married her first husband when she was in her teens and very, very innocent and naïve. This innocence was soon lost, and coloured with pain, leading her to restrain her feelings, life and who she was as a person in order to survive an abusive relationship. Although my sister remarried again, to a really nice man, she continued to hold onto (deep inside her head ) abusive words that she had constantly been told. Last year She heard her first husband had died, which brought back everything, even remembering she once loved the man who broke her. Her courage, love and kindness to everyone inspired me to focus on other women who are strong but don’t shout about it. My final major project is for all women out there even the Royals who have lost their first love for whatever reason and which has therefore changed them as a person.
My embroidery is a story which will hopefully read differently by anyone who views it. Let me know what you think, I would love to know if it sparks a memory, story, etc. for you and if you would be willing to share it with me.